la vita bella

its almost 4am.i cant sleep.been all day with my laptop since morning.i spend most of the time surfing the internet and wasting my time facebook-ing,my new formspring account and laughing at funny pictures.overall,i just spend 1hour for assignment.gila.memang mau cari penyakit lagi aiyoo..janji sama matt mau pass my final then lari p kl.hehe bukan la lari betul2.. :( i need my baby..mau jumpa my babyy..i miss him..MISS HIM SOOOO MUCH.hopefully my baby jadi dtg kk next week.hmmphhh! >_< (byk2 harappp.so fingers crossed)

mau mat datang kk..then after jumpa ada motivation!!yeayy!! because i tried to focus on finishing my work but i cant,betull...susah ni mau focus.padahal its very2 important for me to pass my final and grad this end of year!!gawwdd knp la belum insaf2 lagii..but itried..ganjil ni last sem terlebih rajin sampai buat extra2 work.tiba2 last sem suda jadi super2 malas.kenapa ni!!mcm kena cursed ni.sampai at one point that i really believed that im really jinxed ni.apa lagi di SEKOLAH BODOH SIA NI!!SEKOLAH PERASAN HEBAT.MAU STUDENT BUAT LEBIH TP FACILITIES PUN NDA CUKUP!! bahalol nya ini sekola..eee.kin panas.byk suda kawan saya jd mangsa.i admit i should graduated like a year ago..but saya mengaku saya malas.then after saya jadi super rajin memang salah tahun for me to be RAJIN.sbb sekola kin panas,management screw up big timeeee!!!!makan duittt obviously!! and lecturer bias.then i realized..menyesal kenapa la nda rajin time my 1st bach..time tu senang2 assignment dia skrg drg expect kita buat kerja mcm professional.ndapa laa...salah sendiri juga kan.siapa suruh pemalas.but apa pun jadi i still wont give up.but i thank Allah for giving me the strength for me to fight till the end!!THANK YOU i know im not alim,jarang pray to U and i know im not a good muslim(gud girl pun bukan),even using the word Allah make me feel like a hypocrite..but there must be a reason why Allah giving me the strength..alhmdullilah.THANK YOU.for listening to me..apa2 pun kita mesti honest dgn diri kita and apa pun dia(up there) juga yg paling faham kita kan(beside matt),listen to us everytime kita sedih..

ok.ini bebeh saya matt dtg next week weeeee~! happy nya tak terhinggeee!rasa nya mcm butot terbang ke angkasee,jau melayang tinggi.i keep telling my self that that i have to see him first then i can focus start working on my assignments! somehow i feel like im telling my self a lie just to feel better..or mmg ja malas..eeeeeee gilakkkk apapapun mmg akan me-motivate kan sayaa!!gila ka nmpk dia suda tiba2 nda ingat "living together happily in KL 2012"!! nda sabar mau kerjaaa kumpul duit byk2!!!beli ikea furniture deco my own house,fresh flowers and pasar seni's art!og omg!!! CANTTTT FREAAKKIIINN WAIITTT.and masak hari2 for my baby... (bubbly2 feeling *pop *pop) haaa....(exhalllee) ya laa..i know reality dia nda la perfect semua mcm tu..ingat senang ka mau hidupp..mcm matt ada ckp td time were on the phn last evening..

me: alaaaa beli laaa beli laa tiket cepaaatt nnt nda dapat suda tuu mahal suda tuuu nag nag nag.

mat: cuba u think positive duluu..

me: (iyakan..)

think positive

ya itu dia puan2 dan tuan2 kata kunci kita pada hari ni.THINK POSITIVEE.
bah apa pun tuan2 dan puan2 saya pergi tidur duluuu..kerja gila ni menaip2 di tengah pagi suda tau assignment bertimbun mcm bukit..

ok la...byee.toodelooolooolooloolooloo (btw.toodeloo mean 'see you soon' in french.its my new found fave word :D )

ok toodelooo~

ganjil ni..i decided to activate my old blog again just 15minutes ago.best ni,stress-buster!!